Hi

Kiss me.
Hold me.
Don't let go.
Take me back.
Make dear sweet love to me!

All things I want to scream out at you.
But all I can manage is a hopeful smile
and a "hi".

Just know that that hi
means so much more.

It means you hurt me.
In a way I thought no one could ever hurt me again.
My world shattered around me,
showering me in debris,
burying me deep in a sadness
I wish was gone.
But it's not.

It means I miss you.
I miss your arms around me at night,
easing me into my most peaceful sleep.
I miss you kissing me on your couch
and at my car
and in your bed.
I miss the sensation of you moving inside me,
the only rhythm I was ever able to keep.
I miss the feeling I got when your lips met mine.
When I was in your arms.
I miss feeling at home.

It means I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I wasn't everything
you hoped I would be.

It means come back.
Please.

So,
hi.