Heartless

I'm trying to locate the anger within my heart

But I can no longer find my heart

Blown to pieces too microscopic it's no longer there

Anger would be so easy, a safe place for me to bury my tears

But now all I feel is the aching emptiness of my whole being 

An emptiness that I attempted to claw my way out of until my fingernails were caked with blood of my effort 

My effort to love you despite the blinding pain that begged me not to

But now here I am

Standing on my street devoid of life at this time 

The wind tickling my skin the way you once did

The stars smiling down on me the way you once did 

The moon whispering sweet lies of peace like you once did

But will never do again 

For you took my innocent forgiveness and corrupted it worse than any kiss I ever gave you did 

You took my raw, beating, broken heart and handed it to her 

Bestowing it onto her as a kiss 

You seduced your way into my soul with your words 

And gave them to her out of spite

Anger would be so easy 

But I find no anger

I can't find anything anymore

My soul is a deep abyss 

Leading to the where my heart should be